Hello. I'm back for yet another post. I know this is a little absurb but 70 pageviews a day? With only view counts as low as 15? Come on people you don't have to spam it this way. HAHAHA. I know you love me :B
Went to Powerhouse tonight with Nigel and Hao Xuan, my dear bros who have been there no matter how long I left them for. Practically was dancing alone the whole night and doing nothing. Just enjoying my time there after not being back for so long. And I have no idea how come my face has this little scratch on it :< Oh well. Just applied aloe vera gel on it so it should heal once I've woken up from my sleep.
Caught up with them and had a little exchange session regarding our relationships. I realized how things worked. And my learning point of the day? Being realistic. I will no longer drive myself into a corner and continue being naive. Some get into relationships because of their needs, be it sexual needs or emotional needs, some get into relationships because they have time to spare and so on. There are many genres of relationships. You have to know that he/she's just not the one for you, if the level of thinking lacks too much. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter if he/she will be in your arms together anymore. It depends on if he/she has the qualities to be a good wife/husband.
It's about the future that the two of you can see together. Those willing to go for it, will have a plan set out for the future and follow it up. For those who don't, well all I can say is, continue dwelling in your wandering life without any aims. People who wake up to sleep and sleep to wake up. I'm sorry for being naive and thinking that I could cultivate the potential in you. You're just not there yet, and I guess I didn't take my time to know you well enough and rushed into the relationship. Perhaps we were both in it for our own different needs, but my needs weren't my priority.
My priority was looking after my partner's needs. And that's how things work, both parties should place each other's needs in first place. I'm not sure what you got into this relationship with me for, but I sure know you didn't come into this relationship in search for someone to have a future with. You might come back with a whole different perception of things, but right now, you're not the right one for me.
And as much as I don't want to admit it, I need to re-define my definition of love. It could be the similar ideals that both parties share, or the chemistry between each other, or one with a lot of sexual stunts, or how the both of you smile when you talk to each other, or how the way the two of you work together without taking things offensively and slowly get the problem solved.
But I do know one thing. I will never stop trying at love, and the next relationship that I am going to enter, I am going to make sure I know a hell lot about the other party before going into it and that I am assured that it will work. I will never stop being nice to my girl, bringing her surprises, gifting treats and remembering the small little things, even putting her picture as my wallpaper. This is a part of me that you are never ever gonna take away from me, because I am not going to give up on how I treat love just for one tree amongst the vast forest. One day, I will settle myself and rest my heart on this one tree that is never going to stop growing and give up on bringing the both of us towards new heights. It might be you, or not. Things will come as how they come.
On a lighter note, I am meeting Geok Shan bestie later on, one of the people who actually really bothers to make time for meetup-s, compared to those who're all talk. I might be coming back with pictures, might not be coming back with pictures, depends on how nice I am willing to wear tomorrow! HAHAHA. So hopefully I'm more hardworking when I wake up alright?
Lastly, hope you guys will enjoy your public holiday! Take the time off to rest your mind, rest your heart and soul, and prepare for the week. Love you guys.
