Just finished watching The Vow on Funshion, and somehow I kept crying throughout the whole show. Especially when the both of them spoke of their vows to each other. I'm a sucker for romance shows. Oh well. I'm not sure why, but probably I'm so into this thing called true love because it's what I place as my priority. I could be working, driving or doing something else, but once things happen, my emotions immediately get affected and I lose all will to continue doing whatever I am engaged in. Then somehow I end up being so focused on maintaining the relationship that I forget about the crucial part, making sure that we both still feel the same way for each other and that the solution to the problem will slowly come, just as how the relationship started, the gradual development of feelings for each other.
I guess I really hope that someday I'll have the courage to ask you to get together, not again, but take us as being together for the first time once more. Just like why I was willing to leave her for you, I want to experience it all over again, the feeling of us wanting to call each other our own. I want to meet you at macs after club again, talk to each other like we didn't hold anything back, and enjoy each other's company from deep within our hearts again. I want to find another anime which both of us look forward to watching together again. I want to feel for the first time when we cried with each other again.
Call me naive, stupid, unrealistic or daydreaming, I'll believe what I want to believe in, not what I think I should believe in. Even if it's just this one last time, I'll not hold anything back and just give it my best shot.
They say everything is about timing, and yea timing is everything. I'm listening to Train - Marry Me again. And I'm feeling for it even stronger than before. Okay I'm a sucker for romance movies and songs. HAHAHA. Oh well. There is a reason, why I didn't go back to my previous ex-es that I was serious with, yet I want to start something new again with you. But love doesn't need any reason, so too bad you guys're not gonna get to know why HAHAHA. LOL. Sorry for cheating your feelings LOL.
So hopefully, we're able to put down our armors, lay down the weapons and stop being defensive and start being naked to each other again, with nothing else but heart to heart beside one another.
Anyway I just ended the sleepover at Nigel's house and carried a truckload of stuff home. So tiring. Handphone ran out of battery again! So reception was only available when I got home. Feels so good being home. Might be meeting up with Jaslyn and Junjie for dinner tomorrow and get my $30 cos I'm feeling so poor now. Will be going over to Yishun tomorrow to get my cheque. Beats me why the pay was delayed and just nice I have to go over myself and collect it tomorrow, but I need money so perhaps I'm left with no choice but to do it.
Lastly, I'll sign off with a much more cheerful song. Train - Hey, Soul Sister.
Your sweet moonbeam,
The smell of you in every dream I dream.
I knew when we collided,
You're the one I have decided,
Who's one of my kind.
Love you guys.
