Updates on my current life? Gaming. Fully into it again, and of course getting back my figure. Whole body aching alr, chest, biceps and triceps and abs. Every single place possible, even when I just hung my clothes to dry.
Kinda waiting for my friends to find me, but obviously the friendship all dissapated due to unseen reasons. Somehow still feel happy and close to tears when Ryan cares about me. I mean, how good is that, to actually have somebody notice how you're feeling and cheer you up realistically, compared to those who simply say 'cheer up' and stuff.
Talk about getting into adulthood. National Service. Time to be a man. Okay I know enough about going on and on about it but really, it means a great deal to me. Getting to know new people, which I really am kind of afraid of. It's just tiring you know, making friends all over again. People may not know it but I'm really an introvert. Yes I know it's not obvious thank you very much LOL. Still, I usually try to accommodate rather than show what my actual self wants. So my friends will find me a great company, though those who find me lame and boring already left me, but still :')
Relationship wise, not going so well. Afterall everything's still an unknown so bumps here and there are going to occur if it is one to settle down for. I'm still coping with everything so no worries.
Appreciate all the support, not attention. I've changed from an attention seeker to a lone wolf. From one with friends who miss my presence and actually bother to ask me out, to one with friends who say that and do otherwise and show me that I'm not essential in their lives. So be it. I'm done with them.
Somehow it's just a quiet period of time for me alone before I enter NS, another boisterous period of life. Life is like that, always full of ups and downs and there you have it. Enjoy the downs, as much as one enjoys the ups. Take it, or leave it. Obviously taking it is better. LOL.
Love you guys.
