Just a short update. I have patched back with Vanessa, for the first time in my relationship history.
It's no big deal, there's always a first time, but this will be my first and her last time with me. So I hope everything goes well, because as much as I know, we're both willing to sit down, talk over and properly settle the problem.

I know why I am lacking behind her change. She had friends there for her when I was not there. I did not, I imagined her there with me and kept breaking down. And that perhaps made her realise how important friends were, out of our slumber and previous nightmare. I need to as well. I need to get back my social circle, get all those friends who miss being with me back again, so we'll once again walk down the same path, only with the same pace this time.

So cheers to chances given and taken, and another love you guys for being here for me, even though I try to push you guys away. I know I have let you guys down in some way or another, but all I can say is, only when the right feels wrong and the wrong feels right, does it really feel right.